JUNE 14, 2020
SOLEMNITY OF THE BODY AND BLOOD OF CHRIST
SUSAN HAARMAN
At the time that I'm recording this video, the city of Chicago
has been in shelter in place due to the COVID-19 outbreak for just under two
months. Faced with a rapid change in my daily life and routine, my partner and
I decided to deal with that as so many others have - by taking on a fairly
ambitious baking project. We decided to try to make our own sourdough
starter.
It failed. Spectacularly. Three different times.
As I watched our source of flour slowly begin to diminish
knowing that it was a very hot commodity and hard to find, I finally decided to
phone a friend and try to figure out exactly where we were going wrong. I was
being peppered with questions like “was I measuring the sourdough
starter’s temperature?”, “Was making sure to feed it at exactly the same
time?”, “ Am I making sure to find an ideal place that was not too warm, but
not too cold?”
I just started thinking - I was not aware that I was in
an in-depth personal relationship with a baked good.
Bread of Life Sunday looks really different during a global
pandemic that limits so many people's ability to receive Eucharist. For many of
us Holy Week and Easter Sunday came and went without being able to take part in
the core liturgical act - the reception of the Body and Blood of Christ. Without
the Eucharist, how do we talk about what it means when Christ says, “I am the
Bread of Life.”?
As I read the first reading today and heard that reminder and
admonition that “man does not live by bread alone, but on every word that comes
from the mouth of God,” I tried to take some comfort in it. But I just kept
thinking, it's just not the same. Then I remembered, at the end of the day, the
Eucharist begins and ends in a relationship. That's where it all comes from and
where it all returns to.
I think it might be helpful for us to really engage this week's
Gospel reading if we have a sense of what's happening off-screen. Just before
Jesus begins to explain to us what it means to be the living Bread of Life come
down from heaven, at the beginning of this chapter he's actually just fed 5000
people. After this miracle, he heads off to pray and when he comes back the
crowd meets him and specifically tries to ask him where he's been and what's
going on. Christ fairly astutely wonders if they are there because they believe
in him or because they want another meal. The group hedges their bets and
says, “well you know Moses was able to produce bread in the desert, so maybe
that's a sign that you can give us that will help us believe in you.” Christ
responds saying I am the bread of life - I am what has come here to nourish
you. It then goes into a very long conversation where the crowd continues to be
confused and keeps asking for actual bread and Christ repeatedly says “I am the
bread of life. I am the living bread.” It’s that admonition over and over again
that it was a relationship with Christ that people needed to be fed by, that's
at the root of the Eucharist. It’s a reminder of where the Eucharist comes
from.
So it's with that reminder of essential relationality of the
Eucharist that I've been trying to re-engage and remind myself. I'm thankful in
these moments to have what Andrew Greeley would call the “Catholic
imagination.” It's that sort of window that many of us tend to have where we
can see God's movement and participation in all of life around us. God isn't
this distant thing that we need to go out and find, but rather, God is invested
and incarnated in the midst of our own lives, inviting us continually to feel
God's presence and to feel God's love. It's in these sacramental moments,
these moments that point back to the ways that we experience grace through the
sacrament, that I find myself being fed and being reminded of what the reality
of the Eucharist looks like for me.
I'm sure you can think of some of these moments as well. Maybe
it was the first date or meeting that you had with a special person in your
life across a cup of coffee or a glass of wine where you just found yourself
grateful to be in their presence. Maybe it's during meals at family dinners of
being seen and loved. They are a subtle echo of the reality of the sacrament -
Eucharist reminding us again to be in relationship. It's Christ
over and over again reminding us “I am the living bread.”
But it goes beyond just remembering. Relationships are
about more than just what we receive. I think the words from the first letters
the Corinthians is a great reminder that the Eucharist isn't a spectator sport.
We participate in the body of Christ when we break the bread.
We participate in the blood of Christ when we drink from the
cup. Living into a Eucharistic reality means participating in it. It means
saying yes to that relationship again and again and again. It means trying to
model the Eucharistic relationship that God offers us to everyone around us -
the folks that we love, the folks that we are troubled by, the folks that
we know, and the folks that we don't.
The Eucharistic calls us to be in relationship is a challenge
over and over again for us as believers and perhaps more importantly to us as a
Church. At this time when we find ourselves so distant on this Bread of Life
Sunday, how do we think about what it means to participate? To love those who
seem unlovable. To go beyond the boundaries of our own understanding of who
fits and who doesn't.
I want to leave you with one final story. Years ago I
spent Easter Sunday in Kingston, Jamaica at a place where children who had
essentially been abandoned to die in a dump were able to live out their lives
with dignity. In the middle of the mass, a developmentally disabled child who
had been making noises throughout the majority of the mass stood up at the very
moment of epiclesis. As the priest raised the host above his head, the child
stood up pointed and shouted “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.” Then he pointed to himself
and said, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.” And finally he pointed at the entire crowd and
said, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.” In that moment I knew that I had been fed far more
than I could have ever imagined. So friends, as Christ reminds us that he's the
living bread come down from heaven, how can we participate in that reality here
and now?
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Susan
Haarman is the associate director at Loyola University Chicago’s Center for
Experiential Learning, facilitating faculty development and the
service-learning program. She has degrees from Marquette University, Loyola
University of Chicago, the Jesuit School of Theology at Berkeley, and
previously served as the faith and justice campus minister, also at Loyola
University Chicago. In addition to having a Masters in Divinity, she also holds
a Masters in Community Counseling, a certificate in directing the 19th
Annotation of the Spiritual Exercises, and is currently in a doctoral program.
Her research focuses on the intersection between social justice education,
civic identity, and imagination. She is also an improviser and storyteller in
Chicago.